Day 2 of Project 137 was a real eye opener for me. We were instructed to look at what we defined as obstacles on our path to living life fully on day 1 and think about how we can embrace those obstacles as being deeply beautiful things. Truth be told, I had to take a hard look at what I consider to be an obstacle.
I have a dream. I have had this dream for awhile now. I want to create and execute a show that inspires moms to make positive changes in their lives for both themselves and their kids. I have been creating such a show for the past year with another mom and we are making great strides in seeing this dream to fruition. I was getting really frustrated during the summer break from school because I was unable to get as much work done as I could. I was not enjoying the summer with my kids as much as I should have been. Now that school has started and homework needs to be done, I still don’t have enough time. Truth be told, I will never have enough time. There will always be homework, sports, Dr appointments, life…
So here is what I realized in thinking about all of this:
When I look at my day, the meal prep, the homework, the sports practices, the bed time tuck ins, I see the task itself as something to check off of my mental to do list. I see them as chores, when I should see them as opportunities to love and serve those I love. I need to appreciate them and not have an attitude of “hurry up and get this over with.” I often say to my kids, “C’mon, I don’t have all day. We have stuff to do.” I’m hurrying their childhood along and someday, my wish to have it hurry up and be over, will be granted and I’m not so sure I’m going to like it. I’ve wasted a lot of years hurrying my kids to the next to do item. I need to stop before I end up regretting it.
I made the mistake of thinking that I would be living life fully when my show came to fruition. I failed to see that my life is already being fully lived. From the most menial of tasks to the big events, I am living life fully now and I have not been appreciating it. The show will happen. It will be successful and I will enjoy it. However, I must not forget to enjoy my kids, motherhood, the small things along the way because I’m so busy reaching for the stars. I cannot help moms live life fully if I myself am not doing it. I pledge to find joy in the everyday. I pledge to love my kids and stop hurrying their childhood along so that I can reach my personal goals. I pledge to truly put motherhood first and let everything else happen as it will. I pledge to see my life as already being full of joy and moments to enjoy.
How about you?